If I had been, If I had been not

I would be Elims but I am not. I would be Smile but I can not. I would  be something else...  Such a love is ridiculous. Such a hate is even  ridiculous. I smile and I laugh.  I am such a vengeful dog in the shell  of God named Elims. I ignored your wish and give you a rough punishment  the same as I. Painful enough to open your eyes.  Such a delusion is  ridiculous Such a fantasy is even ridiculous. I smile and I laugh.  Yet,  the tears are not stop. Not because I am laughing...  Why?  WHY?  Why  YOU mortal have to be suffered to this extent?  I came down and became  suffered like you but you still do not understand the PAIN.  Why are you  such a masochistic puny human?  I disgraced myself for you but you  still do not understand the GRACE in yourself.  And then you sympatized  me and suffer even more... for WHAT?  Isn't that really you who beg for  it? Who really want to be helped?  I gave you one but you start to  forgot it.  Shall I remind you again?

 

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Some one post that on the God's id. But then refuse to let it show, but I'm lucky enough to see it.

 

I'M SHOWING IT

 

Just so that I can respond.

 

I LOVE THE FREAKING PAIN.

 

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