If I had been, If I had been not

This is going on the third year, isn't it?

I haven't been posting much, neither have I been trying to follow anything of you guys. The other guy said good bye the other day. I lose my count, not that I ever count. It's normal, after all.

One day we'll all be perished. I wonder, if I would even say good bye to anyone. Cuz I've got this tendency to just dissappear from someone's life. I had happened, many times. It'll certainly happen again, that's how it is.

 Because today I've just saw my friend's journal. I did what I've always did, poke my nose in someone else's business. Not like I care hoe ppl think.

 So well? what? why?

I show my good side, but I need to let out the twisted side of me too. Don't you guys think I don't have one. Cuz I do, and it's a strong one. One that I want to talk about.

What about me? I have two parts. Not splited personalities( but ok, splited persona,) What about two part?

You know, the me that forever try to be as inhumane as this human brain will permit. and the me that forever try to be understanding and forgiving to the end of Earth.

Somewhere between those two, is me. twisted and kind, unique and as ordinary as anyone else. I have hateful personality, and I hate a lot of things. But I have that side of me that keep telling to understand, which I also hate.

Understanding something, usually makes you love it. The thing is, it's so much easier to just hate the hell of whatever you hate, and love whatever you love to your heart content.

I can't really do that.

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but I still love and hate things.

and it really nice to be so.

it is

even pain, is nice.

and I do love it